Waking up

It’s 8:05 on a Sunday morning and I’ve just taken down the dogs and I’m sipping my morning tea and everything is the same as it always has been.  To this day, two weeks ago I met with Heather Bryant a channel/medium/oracle and went over an outline of questions I had about my life, life’s purpose and why things are the way they are. 

At first, I was a bit skeptical with the process as a lot of the answers she was giving me was general and could be applied to nearly anyone.  As we got deeper that questioning voice in my mind started to get quieter and quieter.  I struggled with choices in the past.  I’ve made choices I feel regret about, I don’t want to do again.  I’ve been seeking, it feels subconscious and unconscious, sometimes I don’t feel super lit up.  I don’t feel like I’m living in color.  I’ve made decisions to try and live in color.   There’s a little fear about why I made those decisions before.  I’m a little scared about what if I decide to make those decisions again?

I want to take the high road, although I feel as though I’ve already taken the high road.  Why is this coming up again?  Do I have something new to learn? 

The very fact that I reached out to Heather and asked her spirit guides these questions is the very fact that I’ve woken up.  I’ve woken up from the stupor of many not so smart choices in my life and according to her many lifetimes before.  I don’t want to make the same mistakes and I want to help people stop the generational trauma and not pass things down to those I love, to those that are here for a reason.